For nearly my whole life, I had always thought that I was a hardcore introvert. I mean, I thought I was quiet and shy. I thought I would always prefer solitary activities (such as reading). I thought I hated spending time outside my house. Those labels I put on myself led me to believe that I would stay that way until the rest of my life.
I have changed a lot though — shockingly. I’m more outgoing and talkative that I find it difficult to be alone at school. I feel like I just HAVE to socialize with my friends during break times, which I used to spend reading books alone in my corner. If I’m free at weekends, I will go to the mall with my friends and watch movies or basically just hang out at the food court. Some nights, we go to birthday parties or dinners (which are a huge thing especially in 11th and 12th grade — you know, sweet seventeen and all). Hence, my lack of reading time.
As my social life becomes more active, I realize that I haven’t had a “me” time for a long time. When was the last time I finished a book in one sitting? More than a month ago. When was the last time I read my favorite manga series? A few days ago, but before that, I hadn’t been really updated with Haikyuu!!, Tokyo Ghoul:re and a bunch of other series. Which was why I dedicated that specific day to catch up with Haikyuu!!. But even after that, I could only manage to read a few chapters before I ended up doing other things…
Those are the solitary activities I usually find happiness in doing but what happen? Am I happy now? YES. Do I miss my “me” time though? YES. I’m always striking for balance, but most of the time, I fail terribly and neglect one of them.
This is what’s going on in my life right now. But in the end, sacrifices have to be made. I enjoy interacting with other people and I think for now, it’s the thing that gives me the most happiness. Why is that? Soon, I and my friends will walk different paths and more likely, we won’t be able to be as close as we are now. It’s my final year and I have mentioned multiple times here that I want to make the best of it.
I can read my books sometime in the future. I can still watch my anime or read my manga later. But senior year isn’t going to repeat itself.
That doesn’t mean I’m leaving the blogosphere. I can never throw this blog away. In a way, it’s like my “baby”. I started it from zero and have raised it until the way it is now. But do expect more non-bookish posts from now on. I’m still resolved to finish my TBR pile at home though so it’s not like there won’t be reviews anymore 😀
*forever drowning in my TBR pile and anime list* I mean, hot damn, have you seen fall anime titles? HAIKYUU!! S2. NORAGAMI S2. OWARI NO SERAPH S2. ONE PUNCH MAN. SUBETE GA F NI NARU.
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THIS?